Another late night blog, I have to stop this, and should just head to bed instead. I am hoping some day many years down the road I will read these entries and it will give me some kind of insight into life. Been working hard again today, we laid our own linoleum, did all the baseboards the paint etc… etc… and now we are staring at a washing machine that is too heavy to get up the stairs by little ol’ me and a pregnant wife. We rented an appliance dolly but I am afraid it won’t make the journey up the stairs, so it and the machine rest at the bottom, sometimes you just have to admit defeat I guess or maybe this is where good judgment comes into play.

This just proves our point that we really don’t know many people here yet as I can’t even find somebody to help me up the stairs with the washing machine. Makes me feel a bit helpless and need I say lonely. But, this is life, and this is how it goes sometimes. Proves the point that you can have all the world in your pocket, but often without a friend you are left standing rather alone in the doorway.. No pun. I am so happy to have Wendy by my side, together we can stare blankly at our problem wide eyed and in awe of our utter mess…. But what a great mess it is.

Was supposed to get a call from the new job today, but they didn’t call to set things up. I have yet to announce this at work. I am in one way deeply saddened to be leaving and on the other end aware that in life these decisions are often necessary and are always difficult. This is growth, and we all know this can be painful sometimes.

I am looking forward to a trip up to Vancouver with my sister and Brother in Law… this seems the most wonderful things right now, a right to escape for a while, a time to forget all the worries of home for a while. I have had this feeling again of walking rather lost. Like the world around me seems to know where it is going, and has left me behind. I feel overwhelmed in one way, overjoyed in another, and all along lost, maybe it is all the change of scenery, it is as if time has let me off the rollercoaster ride.

I wish for a moment I could just live my life in denial of the meaning. Just living for the moment at hand. I feel a constant sense of urgency in life, as if each moment could be my last.

Well just another day’s ramblings. I posted our babies Ultrasound to music. The end is so great, the yawns are so wonderful, and the little hands, little feet, little toes. What a wondrous thing to see a life inside my wife. Each moment she grows all the more beautiful, and all I can see is God’s love!